Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Yesterday, we found out the sweet baby girl we were referred was in actuality not adoptable. While yesterday was filled with sadness, today is a new day. Thank God for Jilma and the people who work to find these children homes in the DRC. Upon research they did indeed find the birth mother alive. I'd like to leave it at that. There's truly not much else and we don't blame anyone. We are actually thankful that research is done. I was not totally grief-stricken at this point. No pictures, no history, nothing. Just the idea of her growing in my heart so a little piece of my heart was broken yesterday. I feel if we had been farther into this adoption and found out, I would have been devastated beyond belief. I do not feel like I've suffered a miscarriage nor do I feel overly depressed. I knew deep in my heart all was not right because it was taking much too long to find out information on this sweet baby. I've asked God to help me and He really has. Today was a new day and I'm looking forward to our Cassie whom He has already chosen and we will meet in His time. Please keep her in your prayers.