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Friday, September 25, 2009

Thinking....

of my youngest today ....so far away.....and praying fervently that God watches over her and the court proceedings and our I171h from USCIS.

Sometimes, quite often actually, I get lost in my day and seem to forget I have a new baby coming home. And then something happens to take my breath away....I am a mother to three, not two. Sometimes it doesn't seem real, it's hard to explain. We have a picture of her hanging on our fridge, I see her face everyday but I find that I can't stare at it too long... it starts to hurt. I long to hold her in my arms not just my heart. Knowing it will happen soon just doesn't matter sometimes because soon is quite simply not now. I know there are many adoptive moms that know exactly what I'm talking about. So I release my heart into my blog and cry out to God for a little extra peace. And he NEVER fails.

Today is one of those days and I am crying out to Him.......

3 comments:

cami said...

I know what you are feeling and I'm hurting for you now. It is so hard. It's an aching, longing painful love when your child is so far away in miles, but so close to your heart. Always remember that each day that passes, you are closer and closer to your baby girl.

Carrie said...

I'm saying a little extra prayer for you tonight. Cassie is dreaming of you, too. She'll be in your arms soon.

Stori said...

I really wish I was there to give you a big hug! Then we could share each others tears. We are getting closer one day at a time : )